Tell the Truth

Forked Tongue  Yao Xiang Shakya 2016
Forked Tongue Yao Xiang Shakya 2016

Tell the Truth

In order to tell the Truth we need to know what it is. In Zen there are the facts or our views associated with the material world often known as the conventional point of view. Opinions and views are troublesome and often lead to more trouble.

This precept does want us to tell the truth and nothing but the truth regarding the material world as we know it. Here’s an example: “Did you eat the apple?” Truth be told…I did or I didn’t. We might be reticent to say if there was damage done or some forthcoming blame. In the face of God, Adam and Eve seemed to equivocate. Fudging is apparently an ancient human tendency.

The truth is often exaggerated or minimized, twisted and turned in order to suit our self-interest. And in fact, we are conditioned to present ourselves in the best possible light. We do it in order to get a job, get the guy, get the girl, get the raise, get something…so we can see how this truth is tainted with self-interest.

When you speak without self-interest, the truth might be told.

Mutiny on the Bounty: A Spiritual Remix

Hand in a jar 2Mutiny on the Bounty: A Spiritual Remix
by Rev. Yao Xiang Shakya

Ignorance gives birth to Mara.
Mara gives rise to armies.

Buddha speaks to Mara.
“Your first squadron is Sense Desires,
Your second is called Boredom, then
Hunger and Thirst compose the third,
And Craving is the fourth in rank,
The fifth is Sloth and Torpor
While Cowardice lines up as sixth,
Uncertainty is seventh, the eighth
Is Malice paired with Obstinacy;
Gain, Honor and Renown, besides,
And ill-won Notoriety,
Self-praise and Denigrating Others:
These are your squadrons Namuci.”

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If we are not in union with our Buddha nature, we are up against the squadrons of Mara. If we are unable to withstand these attacks, we are the pitiable in spirit and open to mutiny.

Most assuredly, the “me” struts about with words, acts of all sorts and mental mulling. We mull over our lot with stories that sink us more and more into a bog, whether it be a heavenly bog or hellish one. We go over and over the accumulations of mental composting, thinking we can turn the scraps of thought into gold. This propensity of the swaggering, blustery me is the way of suffering. It’s guaranteed. Every realm, from the hungry ghost to the deva realm is marked by this guarantee.

Suffering…

Any one of the armies mentioned above can lay us low and sink us into the swamp of selfishness, self-cherishing, self-ambitions, self-pride, self-hate and all the taints and traps of the self. We are poor in spiritual wealth and are very much like the mutineers on the notorious ship, the Bounty. We, like the mutineers, are spiritually pitiable.

Our inability to remain disciplined, which requires that we are trained enough to remain focused on our Buddha nature, leads to endless suffering for ourselves and others. We weaken with the attacks of boredom, craving, uncertainty, and self-praise. We fail to remain loyal to our spiritual authority within.

In the historical story of Lieutenant William Bligh, the commander of the legendary British ship, the Bounty, and his iniquitous Master’s Mate, Fletcher Christian, we may recognize our own ill-fated and dismal ruin in the sea battles of Mara’s troops. The sensual desirous mind is the lead battalion which can rock us to such a point we lose faith. We may find ourselves falling into rebellion when our sensual nature overwhelms our trained and skilled navigator; it is where we give way to the lusts of the world despite the presence of a seasoned commander. It requires an onslaught of the squadrons to dislodge our superior nature. We buckle much like Fletcher Christian. We mutiny. We refuse to obey the wisdom of discipline and mistake discipline and correction for the enemy.

The Bounty, the mutiny on the Bounty, misread as a romantic drama of swaggering love against a cruel commander, is a strong reminder of the heartaches that follow when we do not heed the way of disciplined wisdom. Bligh, a brilliant seaman, able and expert in sailing the unchartered waters of the late 1700’s, is portrayed and remembered as an evil and malevolent commander. No one wants to be compared to Bligh. Surely this portrayal is the fabrication of a romantic public. Bligh was a virtuoso of the sea. It is Fletcher Christian who, in the midst of unbridled lust, swamps not only him, but many of the crew and the ship itself. It is Fletcher Christian who is guilty of attempted murder by the very fact he forces 19 men into a small boat without provisions and navigational instruments some 3000 miles from land. Who is the bad guy here?

It’s those times when we rebel against the blockades of what we want. We may experience a correction, by life’s circumstances or another person who reproaches us, as an adversary rather than a caution or warning that we are getting close to an inner uprising by the strikes of Mara.

Spiritual insurgence may not happen to every spiritual aspirant but it does occur. If we are fortunate, we wash up on the shores of another chance to set sail for the true destination of a spiritual life. Whether we rebel or remain a disciple, whether we imagine the spiritual voyage as a cruise ship or the Bounty, the armies of Mara board with us. We can be sure of it. We must take notice and protect our spiritual treasures against the onslaught of sensual desire, boredom, craving, laziness, insolence, indolence, cowardice, malice, self-importance, and self-promotion.

The Bounty, was commissioned in 1787 by Britain’s Royal Navy to travel to Tahiti to acquire and transport breadfruit plants for commercial profit to the West Indies. Lt. William Bligh, the commanding officer, offered his former friend, Fletcher Christian, the position of Master’s mate, a post Christian eagerly accepted. With a crew of officers and able seamen, totaling 46, his Majesty’s ship, the Bounty set sail on 23 December, 1787 from Spithead, England to Tahiti.

Bligh, a young commander at age 32, was nevertheless a skilled and competent seaman. His prior experience included an impressive position with the then celebrated Captain Cook, the English explorer noted as discovering the Hawaiian Islands. Bligh was, as some accounts suggest, an ambitious man, who wanted to sail the Bounty around the most dangerous waters around Cape Horn. Historical records indicate Bligh on the outward bound trip did attempt the Horn and kept the ship in stormy, rampant seas in a 31 day attempt to clear it. Many historians propose Bligh’s insistent attempts to clear the Horn and his rumored vulgar language were the catalyst for the eventual mutiny. But the mutiny took place not on the outward bound trip to Tahiti, but on the return voyage back to England. It is also rumored that the men mutinied out of fear of a return trip around the Horn. This rumor is also quite unlikely. A capable and loyal Naval Officer such as Bligh would be unlikely to risk losing his cargo “the breadfruit plants,” on the return trip through the cold and stormy waters of the Horn where both crew and cargo were in grave danger of not surviving. Before leaving England, Bligh promised the very influential Joseph Banks that he could be assured of safe passage of hundreds of breadfruit plants.

Bligh, it seems, felt the long stay on Tahiti where men, long at sea, found a sailor’s paradise. Bligh’s crew “…learned that the stories that had filled their ears throughout the long, hard outward voyage—about the island’s beauty, its sexually uninhibited women, its welcoming people—were not tall tales, or sailor’s fantasy.” C. Alexander

It is on Tahiti, this island haven, where discipline, although upheld by Bligh, was undone during the crew’s 23 week stay. It is next to impossible to reconstruct with certainty the specific reasons why 19 men took control of the ship under the leadership of Fletcher Christian. No one can say for certain, but what we can say is that mutiny lends itself to those who suffer from the onslaught of Mara. The story lends itself to many spiritual explorations and reflects the powerful tug of desire that leads to mutiny, needless affliction and impulsive acts of the ego. This historical event reflects the truth of the Dharma. We must be single-minded and one-pointed in order to be buoyed up by whatever occurs in life as Dharma, otherwise rather than sustained by it, we will take it personally and sink into our own fabrications. The spiritual aspirant relies on single-minded training and discipline, because the material world is far too potent, as the mutineer, Fletcher Christian, finds out.

Historical records are not definitive, but what is definitive is, that the Bounty left on a mercantile voyage from England for Tahiti and did not return. The crew mutinied on the return trip to England. The mutiny took place after a long stay on Tahiti where the seamen lived among the Tahitians. On the journey home, Fletcher Christian led the mutiny.

In the Pacific far from land, Fletcher Christian forced some of the loyalists to remain on board while the mutineers compelled the remaining 18 of the loyal crew into a 23′ open launch with Bligh. Without charts of any kind, a quadrant, a pocket watch and meager provisions, Bligh navigated 3,618 nautical miles to the safe harbor of Timor. William Bligh landed in the Dutch colony of Timor 47 days later. He lost all but one crew member who was murdered by natives on an island where they attempted to obtain needed supplies. Bligh was trained, he knew the sea, navigation and how to plot a course and get this loyal band of sailors to dry land.

We, too, need certain basic skills to plot a course out of the clutches of internal squadrons of suffering. We need to know how to deal with mistakes, authority and the myriad encounters which challenge us. And we need to know how to distinguish what leads to more ignorance and suffering and what leads to liberation. But some of us get carried away and we mutiny. We begin to get too interested in the swamp, in lust and defiance. We resist authority. We promote our self-interest. We even gather others to join us. But like Fletcher Christian, who by all accounts was swept up in self-indulgence and dissipating discipline, we squander our life effort on pitiable, worldly fruits.

When we embark, and we do embark, on board a spiritual ship we drag along all kinds of things which we believe will help us make it to our destination. We pack our intellect, our physical strengths, wit, and toys of every sort and of course, let us not forget our sense of who we think we are. Often we pack our dreams. Foremost, but often carelessly, we jam somewhere in the bottom of the knapsack or stuffed and crammed in at the last minute what we are going to need in order to reach our destination.

We need our will, a will to train, to stay the course, to continue, to trust and to get up when we fall. It is this one thing, our will to find the truth that sustains, when every temptation under the blazing sun will challenge our decision to stay the course. We will want to give up if we have not unpacked our will and surrendered it to a greater source. Dreams, wishes, fantasies and desires collapse and surrender to the obstacles of such a journey when the will remains separated.

We may not be too savvy in recognizing what’s in the baggage until we run into storms. The storm itself may be our first encounter with the journey not going as we had planned. We may have walked the gangway thinking the journey will be nothing but blue sky and warm breezes sitting on deck chairs being served by solicitous wait staff. It’s reported that those who joined the crew of the Bounty enlisted in order to experience the sensual ecstasy of Tahiti. They did not consider the arduous voyage, the skills and will that would contain the fiery legions of Mara. We do not realize we have enlisted in a disciplined, demanding and a high venture. Many Zen temples use iconic warnings at the front gate alerting the newcomers of the “life and death” matter of Zen. Shadow guardians are stationed to ward off and show strength against any malevolent spirits. It is very important to pay attention to what type of venture we have signed on to and protect the mind from self-serving glories.

Those of us who have ridden the ocean waves for a time can spot the remarkable, earnestness of those joining the voyage on any one of the numerous ports-of-call who mistakenly believe this Zen ocean vessel is a cruise ship.

Even some of us who have been through many a storm can begin to hope for a cruise ship experience where luxury and comfort are the hallmarks. If we are able to stay aboard, we soon discover this ocean liner is more like an aircraft carrier where one is a crew member and not a touring passenger. When we are fortunate enough to recognize our rank as a crew member all sorts of possibilities open. But it may take some strong sea gales before we realize our place on this exquisite and working vessel. We may for a long time be a reluctant, recalcitrant and indolent passenger who hides out amid our mercenary ideas. In other words, we remain motivated by personal gain. But it is not to worry the ocean voyage itself finds those who are hiding selfishly in desires of personal profit. These passengers often make the same mistakes and secretly plot schemes of mutiny against the hardworking often exhausted and seasoned crewmates, jump ship at the next port or are thrown off by a commander with savoir-faire. Their schemes are endless from dalliances to seditions; they rarely go unnoticed.

It is, of course, true that the commander of such a large seagoing vessel can also be incompetent or be viewed by the crew as harsh, intolerant and merciless. Bligh may have seemed a harsh taskmaster leaving Tahiti, but he had just leniently corrected 3 deserters with the lash and he knew how loose the discipline had become. He needed his crew taut, skilled and ready for the 12,000 mile return voyage. He attempted to help the crew regain discipline and skill for the long journey ahead hoping to end the indolence and disorderly conduct. We must hope and pray that the discipline meted out is enough to strengthen the moral fibers of the crew to reach the hoped for destination.

We might know the taste of the rigors of such a voyage and the exquisite contentment that comes from the commitment of a commander such as Bligh. And we are reassured by our love, our disciplined love for such a commander, for ourselves and for others. Disciplined love which comes from a trained and selfless master of the way is beyond explanation and words. The commander helps the crew stay the course, but only if the crew unpacks their will. Disciplined love results when the will is surrendered to the greater Source on a spiritual voyage. It’s an adventure beyond the adventures of time and space.

The most we can say with any certainty is that the mutineers of the Bounty were captives of selfish dreams of the kind from the likes of Mara’s squadrons. It does not mean they are hopeless. It may mean a confession, followed by an ability to bring to an end their foolish belief that freedom is found in an insurgence against disciplined love. If they are unable to stop, they remain shackled by their own self-centeredness.

Reference and Recommended Reading:

The Bounty: The True Story of the Mutiny on the Bounty

The Wheel of Suffering: A Story in Many Parts

http://www.quietmountain.org/dharmacenters/buddhadendo/wheel_of_life.htm
Wheel of Suffering Figure 1

The Wheel of Suffering:

A Story in Many Parts

PART ONE – The Beginning

Three years ago, my teacher offered members of the sangha support and guidance to create a personal artistic expression of the Wheel of Suffering, an ancient Buddhist mandala comprised of images that map how we humans create and re-create our own suffering.  The Wheel of Suffering also brilliantly offers an imagistic map of liberation.  It is a one-stop guide into the entire panorama of Buddhist wisdom.

 

Wheel of Suffering

It is said that the Buddha originally drew this series of images in the dirt to explain the origins of suffering to his monks.  Subsequently, the Wheel could be found on the walls of every monastery, as a teaching in symbols, not requiring literacy, just a willingness to contemplate the fullness of what is presented.

But the symbols are ancient, and sometimes difficult to translate into modern culture.  Could we, could I, re-work the images to speak to this time and place?  Could I do so in a way that would speak to others, that would be a universal as well as a personal, guide to liberation from suffering? My sangha embarked on an in-depth contemplation of the Wheel images and their spiritual significance.

 

The Wheel Figure 2
The Wheel Figure 2

 

The Wheel of Suffering is comprised of three main ideas/images: At its center is the wheel itself, actually four separate and nested wheels.  These four wheels together contain close to 30 separate images, each describing yet another way we manifest self-centered pain and disappointment.

The nested wheels are held by a fierce creature who fixes the viewer with a steady, piercing stare.  This creature, Yama, represents impermanence.  Impermanence, embodied by Yama, is spinning the Wheel—AND devouring it.  Can you see how the constant change in your own life is spinning your wheels, how change itself and the friction thus manifested can leave us wanting something other than what is?

Yama is in turn suspended within a frame of sky, from which a Buddha stands nobly in a cloud.  So, all of our suffering, AND impermanence itself are held by something bigger, something that isn’t suffering, and isn’t impermanent.  Something represented by sky, and by the Buddha, who points at the wheel as if to say, “This is important, study this!”

Study it I did.  At first, to have enough understanding that I could choose an artistic medium of my own to express the many ways we humans are on the wheel, running in circles looking for something we never find. I settled on an overall concept of a deck of cards, a card for each image contained in the Wheel, to be rendered using collages of mixed media.

 

The Card Game of Life 

My deck of playing cards has four “suits,”  one for each of the four nested wheels, signified by a color. Rather than clubs, diamonds, hearts and spades, my Wheel deck has orange, black/white, blue and green suits.

The cards we’re dealt on the Wheel of Suffering…

The Card Game of Life Figure 3
The Card Game of Life Figure 3

Stepping Onto the Wheel    Along with other sangha members, I was engaged in a careful contemplation of each of the drawings contained in the ancient wheel mandala, using these images as a map with which to discover the precise and varied ways I myself created suffering.

We began our study of the Wheel not at the center, but at the top of the outermost circle, represented by the color green in my cards.  Beginning here, one is given, first and foremost, a tool for getting off the wheel.  If one is going to study suffering…it is quite beneficial to enter onto the Wheel with an “out.”  The twelve images of this outer wheel begin, at the top, with a blind man, feeling his way in the world with a cane.  He is IGNORANCE, and in spiritual terms, this ignorance blinds him to the causes of suffering.  He is blind to his innate ability to apply the brakes and turn towards the cessation of suffering.

As I contemplated the root of my own ignorance, I was also searching for how to depict on a playing card this fundamental blindness and the truth it obscures.  This exercise of beginning with inner contemplation, followed greater self-awareness, followed by the creation of an image for the playing card, has become a powerful tool in my spiritual practice.

Zen master Eihei Dogen taught, “To study the Way is to study the self.  To study the self is to forget the self. To forget the Self is to be actualized by myriad things.”  To let go of the hold our ego has over us requires going deeply into our personality, understanding it thoroughly…..so that it slowly loses its grip, and the one who studies, who sees the ways she is conditioned to keep the spinning wheel spinning, and who chooses not to perpetuate those habits…….that one begins to take up more space.  That one is NOT on the wheel.  That one is sky, and like sky, is not separate from everything.

Each card can take weeks of constant attention to what I am doing, thinking and feeling, moment to moment. Such mindfulness, I have come to know from my practice, leads to clear comprehension.  Clear comprehension leads to wisdom.   Once some clear comprehension of my habit or tendency in each realm of the wheel is reached, the way is opened to let an image for the playing card arise. Each of my cards reflects my own quest for such wisdom.

At first, I was deeply uncomfortable with spending so much time in “don’t know,” in an absence of images and understanding.  I had to accept that  I could not think these understandings into being.  To bring forth an image requires a willingness to sit still in the empty space.  I came to trust the something that would inevitably emerge from nothing, often when I would least expect it.  Each card reflects my practice with this kind of patience, this equanimity with the moment-to moment unfolding of everything.

IGNORANCE

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Figure 4

 

 

As I pondered the blind man on the road, I came to see that my own ignorance comes from getting caught up in the identities and activities of my everyday life as if they will provide me with ultimate nourishment.  What I go after inevitably creates pain, stress and disappointment—-even when it is initially pleasurable.  When I can see the suffering I create, and recognize that I am looking in the wrong place, I step out of ignorance.  Seeing that I am suffering gives me another choice.

 

 

 

The stuff we fabricate, and take as real, blinds us to the truth of suffering

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Figure 5

 

When we can see that we want the material world to make us happy…the blind snaps open, something crumbles, the wise grandmother comes out of the basement, and Truth sets us free

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Practicing with Ignorance

Two winters ago, deeply immersed in my study of the Wheel, I experienced a flare-up of a chronic pain pattern in my neck and head.  The least wrong posture or poor eating/drinking choices aggravated the pattern, and I would be on the couch, in severe pain for a day or two.  I could no longer practice yoga, I could not tolerate even one glass of wine in the evenings.  I began to judge every activity in terms of its potential contribution to pain.  I feared for my future, I was irritated with myself for the least little slip-up that seemed to make things worse.  And I agonized about whether and where to look for help.

By this time, my “Ignorance” playing card was complete.  I had included “joint pain” on the window shade as I knew that physical pain caused me to suffer.  But I had not yet lived the experience of “pulling up the shade.”  Often, waking up to ignorance comes only after much suffering.  We are conditioned to carry on within the narrow confines of our own misery.  We are conditioned to believe that the solution to our suffering lies in finding answers outside of ourselves.  This is indeed a kind of blindness, and it is a profound turn when we begin to see that we ourselves are causing our own unhappiness.  This “turn” is the waking up from ignorance as depicted by the blind man on the Wheel’s outer rim.

The moment when I saw that my neck pain could be part of my spiritual practice was a moment of having my own blindness illuminated!  The teaching of the Four Noble Truths is encapsulated in the image of the blind man and in my personal experience with chronic pain:

First Noble Truth: There is suffering.  Do you know when you are suffering? Do you know that the pressure, anxiety, and irritation you cope with daily is caused by YOU? When I was able to see how much pressure and anxiety I had created around my neck pain, my suffering became evident to me.  Every life has physical pain.  It was my emotional reaction to the physical pain that was creating my suffering.

Second Noble Truth: The cause of suffering is craving.  What do you crave? I just wanted my neck pain to go away.  I wanted my life back.  I wanted to go to yoga, enjoy a glass of wine, and experience myself physically in ways that assured me I was strong, fit and able-bodied.

Third Noble Truth:  There is an end to suffering.  This is a truly amazing message!  Your suffering can end, IF you can see the fallacy in placing your hopes and dreams in the material world.   When my neck pain became a part of my spiritual practice, everything changed.  This was not easy or quick.  It required walking the Eightfold Path, as we are instructed in the Fourth Noble Truth.  With the help of good teachers, and the discipline of a regular meditation practice, I began to accept my pain and the resulting physical limitations as a given.   Moment by moment I learned to precisely and kindly be with the pain.  Moment by moment I began to see clearly the ever-changing nature of the human bodily form.

Once I could stop bringing so much negativity to my experience of the neck pain, the pain itself began to change.  Pain is a message from the body.  If we expend all our energy to resist that message….it will get louder.  Stillness and acceptance can allow for the energy and information contained within pain to move through.

There is liberation, wisdom and a surrender of the delusion of control in this way of practicing with chronic pain or other forms of suffering…such as in the realm of relationships.  Relationships get me into trouble quite often.  How about you?

It was after having dinner with a friend one night that I found myself caught in the agony of anger and judgement toward this person.  They had spent our time together recounting numerous tales of woe.  For them, life was hell.  For me, it was so clear that this hell was self-induced.  I could see clearly how they could feel better.  Why couldn’t they see it?  How could I kindly tell them the truth?  How could I help them to see the error of their ways?  I am not proud of it, but this is a stance in which I often find myself: knowing the solution to someone else’s pain, then feeling responsible for “helping.”

On the drive home, I was able to see that my reaction to this person’s hell was to enter hell with them.  I was miserable.  Closer to home, I saw that I deeply wanted this person to be free from their suffering so that I didn’t have to suffer with them. To fix them was to fix me too….or so I thought.  By the time I reached home, I knew that neither their pain nor my pain for them was fix-able.  I was ready to send an email saying, “Thanks for our time together.  I am so sorry it’s so very hard right now.  You are a good person.  You are doing your best.”

Such a crisp, quick snapping open of the window shade is a great blessing.  Often, the quest to “see the light” is a much longer and more arduous process.  Often, I spend days, weeks, hanging out with the stuff on the shade, unable to see through it.  But it is always amazing grace, and a sign of diligent practice no matter how long it takes, to be lost, then to be found.

Written by Getsu San Ku Shin 2016

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Reaching for the Light

Stringer/Reuters (Feb 1, 2016)
Stringer/Reuters (Feb 1, 2016)

 

The harm that we cause travels out from its impact.
It moves deeply through us, between us.
Neither space nor time halts its flow.

Reaching for the Light Zhong Fen li Bao yu Di, ©2016
Reaching for the Light
Zhong Fen li Bao yu Di, ©2016

It can bring on a darkness.
As we seek to protect ourselves
From inner demons and the living.
This blackness may conceal even our essence.

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Photo Credit: Esteban Biba/EPA

If we are lucky, others may arrive,
Who, like angels or shepherds,
Seek to care for, comfort, and guide us.

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Reaching for the Light Zhong Fen li Bao yu Di, ©2016

From their expressions of love and compassion,

And our own efforts to let go.
We may regain the strength and faith
To again stand next to one another,
To open and reach for the Light.

In 1982, one of the bloodiest years of Guatemala’s 36 year civil war, military officers killed and raped Mayan peasants in the tiny hamlet of Sepur Zarco. Subsequently, eleven women from the village were forced into domestic and sexual slavery. This bondage lasted as long as six years for some of the women. A case was brought against the officers after a long and painful process. This year the Guatemalan courts tried two of the officers in charge, found them guilty, and sentenced them to 340 years in prison. The accompanying photos are of the women who brought the charges prior to their testimony and during the reading of the verdict.

Written by Zhong Fen li Bao yu Di, ©2016

 

 

 


Going from Horizontal to Vertical

Buddha Rests on Buddha
Buddha Rests on Buddha

 

 

Going from Horizontal to Vertical by Yao Xiang Shakya

My fundamental nature is to do nothing, to have nothing. I am to be. Yet, again and again I am fooled into thinking and then doing things that bring about disappointment and dissatisfaction followed by regret. I regret what I thought and what came to be what I did, after what I thought. This inane cycle seems endless because I spin it around and around again.

Somehow, perhaps with some luck, I know when I let the burn I feel cool down, the thoughts and actions show me once more the silly nonsense of my involvement in the material world. It is full of silly nonsense of looking after and going after things, whether the things are mundane, extraordinary or alive. This is life in the horizontal position.

I notice when I want to think about and do things associated with being, just being, I don’t find this same silliness. The most restful place is when I contemplate God (the true nature of being). There is nothing else that seems to be as satisfying. Nothing. This is life in the vertical position.

Quite honestly it’s taken a fair number of years for me to see this truth. I have known for a long time no thing in the material world was satisfying, a thing to be counted on but I kept thinking it was me and my bad luck in finding the thing that was satisfying. All my complaints and angst and restlessness are evidence that I knew through my experience that material things are unsatisfying, yet I remained stupid. I kept trying to make the material world into something satisfying. You know, like the right place to live, work that kept my attention, a healthy body; or more daily things like ‘what now, what’s next?’ Finally one day not that long ago I listened to my dissatisfaction and really understood that it’s a message of truth about the material world. All along my mind, the big, wise mind of being had been telling me this for years and years. I confess I am a numbskull or was. But now like the sound of a trumpet I hear this message as truth because it’s my experience of the material world. And the great part of it is I clearly comprehend it without an aftershock of disappointment or dissatisfaction.

This cycle leads me to question why I am not able to relate the material world as part of to be…just to be. One thing that comes to mind is the hardships of the material world and other beings. The hardships seem to center on a conflict between my inner desire to stay in just being with God and the pull to be involved with the moronic rules of the material world. When I come to terms with the nature of the material world I change. I sit upright right in the middle of the variations.

I remember my seventy year old neighbor going on and on about how she hated the street signs in our neighborhood. The rule asked her and each one of us to move the car to the south side of the street on Thursday and back to the north side on Friday. It does sound ridiculous; but we both knew that it was to make way for the street cleaners. I have to admit even knowing that it was to allow the street cleaners to have a clear path to clean each side of the street the rule does sound, burdensome and stupid. It’s a simple hardship, I know, but a hardship nonetheless. And for my neighbor it was tough. She had to remember to do it and sometimes got a pretty big fine when she’d forget. She was on a fixed income and a fine was a pretty big dent in her monthly income. Of course everyone knew she had a garage but she preferred to park on the street in front of her house. I’m not sure, but I think it was because she lived alone and if something happened to her in her garage it might take longer to find her in the garage as opposed to falling on the street. Besides her husband fell in the garage and lay on the cold cement for two days. It didn’t kill him right away but it led to his death.

The garage, the street, the car and the rules are all hardships when you really think about it. And not only are they physical hardships, these things take up a lot of our mental energy as well. We have to keep these things in mind. Keep tabs on them. Make decisions about them. We think about and do what we do with material things. There’s not a lot of just being and I wonder how much of these things we think about and handle lead to knowing just being. I suspect much of what we do with things is a distraction. So I come back to just being, a joyful shelter.

This miscreant of thinking about things and doing something with them is not new. I’ve had it going on in my mind for years; it lurked, prowled through the possibilities of reshaping and handling the material world. It is a deadly trap; laid me out flat again and again. And it is all a distraction.

But it’s not enough to know it’s a distraction because we need to know what it distracts us from. And we need to know about how to discriminate which is a secret code word for non-attachment. And this non-attachment is no ordinary dismissal of things in the world like a clear out or downsizing. God no! It’s means that I have to continuously be alert to what I am thinking and doing in such a way that I ask myself in some form or another why I want that__________, what permanent advantage do I gain from_________and how would gaining it help liberate the soul?

I am going to make a sweeping generalization about my situation and non-attachment. For the most part, everything except for God is impermanent and therefore everything in the world is not of much help to my quest to know God. But…there’s always the but…some things I need to stay alive in order to find God. Food, water, and shelter come quickly to mind. I also know it doesn’t mean having things is bad or good, but some things add to the hardship of my life. I know a thing adds hardship to my life when I find myself clutching it with attachment. It’s those times when I am sucked up into some afflicted state.

Here’s where discrimination comes in. I need to see what is permanent versus impermanent. When I am able to clearly discriminate I am able to sort out my daily life in such a way I have a shot at just being free of the nonsense of dissatisfaction. I realize there is very little I can do when it comes to the rules of the material world, very little I can do when it comes to other beings, but there is something I can do with what I call ‘my’ life. I can choose to live a horizontal life of entanglement or a vertical life of just being.

I used to fight rather than read the messages that contact with the material world was offering. For the most part, the fight is over. I listen and heed the messages. More and more I am able to stay in what I call just being; it is a place of rest like no other. And more and more I want to be there. I also see that it requires more and more time alone and even though that is the case I am able to tend to the demands of the material world which are necessary and at times demand my attention.

Habits hound me at times but less and less. Which simply means a disciplined approach to relinquishing what is impermanent for the real deal. Discrimination is to know not to become attached to things, not to become dependent on things as a substitute for knowing God.

It’s going from a horizontal life to a vertical one. It’s a life with less and less dependence on how things should go and how others should be. I forfeit willingly the idea that my advantage does not rely on the help of others nor is it impeded. This renunciation of this dependence ends resentment and antagonism. And I am left in a vertical position of knowing there is nothing but God, here and now.

Idle Concerns Block the Way

Idle concerns block the Way
Idle concerns block the Way

 

Idle Concerns Block the Way

Vanity of vanities block the Way to a life in the bright circle of emptiness. Every day is a good day to practice clearing away the vanities and idle concerns blocking the Way. Non-mind, the mind free of vanities, meets non-mind. Just meeting what comes with non-mind, a mind free of vanities; the stuff we make up over and over again. When we brush away, and clear the mind filled with idle concerns we live in the brightness of the boundless empty field.

We are looking for the treasure in the wrong place; there is no wrong place when the mind is free of idle concerns. But when the mind is full of idle concerns we think the Way is somewhere else. This non mind is here meeting the myriad things that are here over and over again. The practice is to clear away the idle made up stuff that blocks the Way.

This, just this non-mind is how to live knowing you are going to die. Drop all the vanities of wanting this or not wanting that…or wanting that and not wanting this. Zen is not a coddling, comfort approach nor is it an unpleasant, torturous approach it is stopping these vain attempts to get what we want and shove away what we don’t want.

Direct your effort to clear away these vain thoughts, these conceits of wishes and images of craving. This is the practice of the Way wherever you are whatever is rising. Meet everything with empty, non mind. This is the practice of no place to stand on with your vanity. Clear away the vanities and live from there. Have no aim of getting something; this is the circle of brightness.

It requires that we STOP fighting the practice with the cunning tricks of the ego.

Brush away the vanities; clear away the fabrications…without getting hooked in self seeking, ego mind. Even this is not something to get, it is to practice whether sitting, lying down, or walking. Silence, solitude, stillness and study of the self support this ordinary practice.

This is the refuge of Buddha. This is the refuge of Dharma. This is the refuge of Sangha.

If you are not practicing in this way, you are polishing a brick and thinking there is something to get, something to fix, something to hold onto. Don’t give up. Start to practice.

 

 

 

 

 

What do you do when you are suddenly the recipient of bad news?

What do you do when suddenly you are the recipient of BAD news?
What do you do when suddenly you are the recipient of BAD news?

Heed the wisdom from above…don’t look back…keep going…to high ground…in the Mind.

I have always been taken in some way with the Jewish story of Lot’s wife. She is a woman to remember even though we don’t know her name. She was rescued from a terrible situation by two holy strangers who led her and her family out of a city under siege.

Here’s the gist of the story.

After a skirmish with the city rebels, two holy strangers (angels in disguise[1]) call Lot’s family together and tell them to get out of the city before it is destroyed. These holy strangers knew this to be true because they were sent to destroy the city.

As we might imagine if we were in this particular situation, we might react as they did. We might question the advice of these strangers and hesitate. We might not want to give up our home, our friends and what is familiar on the advice of two strangers who show up at our door. But if Lot and his kin were paying attention, they would have noticed that something terrible was happening in the city. It was in a word, a wreck. No matter how much Lot’s family might enjoy the place they might want to heed the knock on the door and get out of town.

But there’s confusion, hesitation because few want to be homeless wanderers with little food, water, shelter and the loss of our old companionable habits.

Lot, his wife and family hesitated. They didn’t just bag everything. They weren’t prepared with a bug-out-bag and a survivalist stash. They weren’t prepared. They were fearful for their lives. The two angels had to take them by the hand and lead them out of the city. The holy strangers led them to a certain point then turned back to destroy the city including Lot’s home and goods. But before they leave them the two holy strangers give some advice to these refugees.

“Flee for your life! Do not look behind you, don’t stop anywhere in the Plain; flee to the hills, otherwise you’ll be swept away.”[ Genesis 19:17

There is an urgent tone to this advice. Go, get out. Don’t look back. Flee. Go to high ground. Or else!

After some bargaining with the holy strangers that led to a whole other set of problems, they go. But… Lot’s wife? Well she looks back. And in looking back she turns into a pillar of salt.

When we distrust, when we follow the personal craving, ill-will, apathy, indolence, restlessness, and worry we remain confused. We don’t leave the city. We do not take heed and get out. We continue to seek rest on the plain or in the past rather than turn and run for high ground. When we doubt and look for rest in the material realm of a fleeting world we exhibit our doubt, our confusion and our distrust. We look back, turn brackish.

Go beyond these troubles. Forget accomplishments. Don’t look back. Run for high ground. Rest there.

 

 

 

 

[1] Have you ever considered messengers as angels? Buddhism sees experience in terms of heavenly messengers; how do you look at your experience?

 

What to Do When Hurricane Winds Hit

What to do when hurricane winds hit?
What to do when hurricane winds hit?                        Photo Credit:  Kō Den Kū Shin 2016

When things change, whatever the change, we meet it and respond to it. There is no blame. No self-recrimination. There are things to respond to…with what just happens.

Call 911. Call the Fire Department. We see a live wire down. Call the Alderwoman. Call ComEd. We stay out of the backyard. Greet the neighbors at the door. Stand and look and see ‘what’s the damage?’ Call the electrician. Call the insurance company. Call the City. Walk the dogs. Wash the dishes. Clean the dining room. Make the bed. Call the neighbor. Find the long, orange electrical extension cords. Check with neighbor. Borrow some electricity. Restore the land line. Get some rest. Eat dinner. Go to bed. Make breakfast. Look at the treetops in the backyard. Thank the old tree that gave up life by stopping the big, huge tree from coming further and crushing the zendo. Thankful no one else was hurt as far as we could tell. Two trees died.

And on and on and on…meeting what shows up as best we can…it hasn’t stopped. It won’t stop until we leave the body. We take refuge in practice in our self-sufficient mind. We do the best we can. We laugh. We get a blessing for the sick. We shop for food. We wave at our neighbor. We find a long rope to walk the boys through the rubble. We make tea.

Just on and on…meeting the myriad things.

Whether we fabricate a label of something being GOOD or something being BAD…it all has the kernel of suffering.

If it is a made up label of GOOD, we don’t want it to end…or it triggers fierce anxiety and fear that it will end.

If it is a made up label of BAD, we want it to end…and it triggers fierce wishes and fears that it won’t end.

Brush away the fabrications. Don’t rely on the fabrications. Don’t get too concerned about the external conditions.

Rely on the self-sufficient mind.

 

 

Saint A. Sits in the Field of Boundless Emptiness

St. A. sits in the boundless field of emptiness
St. A. sits in the boundless field of emptiness by Jiaoyuan Qian Yue

The Heart of the Matter

St. A. studied deeply the Wisdom teachings and discovered the body is impermanent. She learned there is no male, no female. She saw all forms, feelings, perceptions, impulses and consciousness as impermanent and was saved from all suffering and distress.

(The Heart Thread, an ancient teaching)