ADVANCED TEACHING: Live Without Desire

All phenomena, the Buddha once said, are rooted in desire. Everything we think, say, or do — every experience — comes from desire. Even we come from desire. We were reborn into this life because of our desire to be. Consciously or not, our desires keep redefining our sense of who we are.

Thanisarro Bhikkhu

First, look at your mind – and study it. It is exquisite in telling you where the clouds and dust are. It uses discomfort and comfort to alert you. Where feeling arises, desire hides.

You must be willing to go beyond your old stories – those tales about yourself that you put together. Those constructions you take for granted as ‘you.’ You think those old stories are you – even those little momentary constructions of wanting something to go your way. All those stories you collected you rely on.

The mind is constantly getting a mixed message – of discomfort and comfort. When comfort boils over you get excited, thrilled and exuberant; when discomfort boils over you get hesitant and search for a fix. These two sensations are heavenly messengers. They signal, like clouds excitement of comfort and excitement of discomfort. It forecasts conflict and tells you desire is at the root of it.

The root is desire. Desire to get something or desire to get rid of something. Wanting and not wanting. Both cause vexation. Find the root desire and let it dissolve. Let the desire wind down and disappear.

Start small. Watch for desire. When you spot it don’t resist it or activate it. See it. Stay still. Let the desire dissolve. Everything is in flux, even desire. Let the natural fluctuations of change  carry the desire away. Don’t be carried away by desire.

Desire for anything stirs up the mind. We go after something on the wing of desire. We get away from something on the run. Let desire fly away. Let desire run through the mind.

I know. You think and even believe you need desire to live. You’re probably saying there is good desire and bad desire. Or perhaps telling yourself you need just a little desire otherwise  — otherwise nothing will happen. You might even die. You believe this story because you’ve been hoodwinked. You’re not alone. Most people believe you need desire. Ask yourself — what if I didn’t need desire? What if I tried to live without it for one day and see what happens. Maybe I don’t need desire. Find out.

If you think about it, wasn’t desire the whole problem in the Garden of Eden? Isn’t desire the whole problem today?

Both then and now we are taken in by desire. Here’s how it traps you. Desire arises. Fabrications in the mind follow. You begin to build a story of how to get what you want or get away from what you don’t want. The story brings the winds, the eight worldly winds: gain&loss, pleasure&pain, praise&blame, fame&disrepute. Of course we tend to focus only on one side telling ourselves that we can minimize the damage and get our reward by fulfilling our desire.

Try something else. Focus on the nature of consciousness when rapt in desire, fabrications and the eight winds. The dust is blown around with fighting, the clouds of conflict descend and rough roads appear. Impulses wreak havoc. All because you think and believe desire is real and solid and a necessity.

This is the way of the world.

The Divine work is different. When desire arises we know it is not real or solid. We see it for what it is. A figment of our imagination. OH, I know you’re going to start asking a what about question. What about desire for God. Don’t get hoodwinked by that either. That leads to lots and lots of fabrications and stories about what Divine work is and how to get a thing you call God or Peace or Liberation.

But….
Sorry, there is a but…..
The “but” is that unless you are doing the Divine work you are full of desire….so it seems that the prudent thing is to change one of those desires into a ‘desire for the divine work.’ WRONG! Just jump in and work with all desire as unreal without even deciding whether to do Divine work or not. Just jump in. Turn away from the jumpy desire in the mind. Look at your mind. Study it in such a way you are able to spot desire rise and let it fly away.

Stay silent. Sit still. Listen. Study the mind. Watch for desire to pop in. Let it fade off. Let desire dissolve. Let it wind down. Rely on the fluctuations that are a natural, ever-present power to carry the desires away.

I bow to the Divine teacher. I offer gratitude for the teachings.
May the merit of this teaching benefit all beings in the ten directions.
Humming Bird

Author: FaShi Lao Yue

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We Think What We Want – We Want What We Think

Shakespeare gives us a fine image of good intentions gone awry: to his own detriment, a fellow so eagerly tries to mount a horse that he jumps clear over it. Just so, Macbeth, pondering his plan to murder the king, worries about his “…vaulting ambition, which o’erleaps itself and falls on the other.”

In the cause of separating church from state, we seem to have o’erleaped ourselves or, to use a more homespun metaphor, to have thrown the baby out with the bath.

As a member of a minority religion, I’m hardly in a position to denigrate the value of religious freedom. It’s a sacred right and the more vigorously it is preserved, the better off we all are.

But religion and spirituality are not the same thing. In trying to protect the interests of the former, we have all too easily sacrificed the latter. In banning spiritual expression from our public schools, a great chunk of what was once an integral part of American heritage and culture has been placed in escrow or some sort of trust account to which a few executors have access and a privileged few may derive whatever moral benefits can accrue to those who gain at the sorry expense of others.

Recently several events brought the problem into focus and clarified, without resolution of course, at least some of the pertinent questions: What have we lost and why did we lose it and what will happen to us if we don’t recover it? Something is terribly wrong.

On July 20th, l969, during the Apollo 11 Mission, Buzz Aldrin and Neil Armstrong became the first men to walk on the moon. We earthbound citizen taxpayers were well informed about the lunar excursion and could track the whole adventure. To discuss the details of this scientific achievement, we learned a new vocabulary: lunar orbit insertion burns; lunar module docking and undocking; PDI (powered descent initiation); and a whole litany of terms. We knew how the crewmen urinated and what they ate. This was knowledge in its finest hour and NASA wanted us to know everything… except… well… not the fact that Buzz Aldrin celebrated Holy Communion before he and Neil Armstrong went down that ladder. That we weren’t allowed to know. NASA didn’t think it prudent to inform us that something spiritual was happening on the moon, that men of science could also be spiritual. Of course, we did know that the astronauts were religious men. They had to be religious. We wouldn’t have sent atheists to the moon or even let them into an astronaut training program.

But just a minute here… the Miracle of Transubstantiation on the moon? Somebody partaking of consecrated American bread on the moon? No way. Six years before the lunar landing, the Supreme Court had declared its “no prayers in public schools” version of the Constitution’s separation of church and state and that separation extended even to government-sponsored events on the moon. So NASA drew that religious line in the lunar sand. Why weren’t we allowed to be told about this lunar Communion? Not until a quarter century after the fact did word leak out to puzzle those of us who heard it. Something was wrong here.

Then last September in Boulder City, Nevada, at Grace Church’s interfaith meditation session, Gard Jamison, while speaking about Christian meditation practices, tried to rustle up some audience participation – always a dangerous venture – and referred to the Sermon on the Mount. Hoping to elicit a little feedback, he quoted Jesus, saying, “‘Blessed are the pure in heart for they shall–‘” and then he waited expectantly for the assembly to shout out the answer as to what the pure in heart could expect, but nobody said anything. There was this great silence as Gard, eyebrows raised and mouth open, sat poised to hear the vault of sound break open and the precious answer issue forth… but all he heard was a faint echo of his own voice. It was an awkward moment and I turned to Richard Smith, the Pastor of Grace Church, who, as you might expect, was groaning with his hands over his face; and I quizzically whispered, “See God?” Could it possibly have been something else? Again I asked, “Don’t the pure in heart see God?” “Good grief,” said Richard in perfect agony, “My flock sits there dumbly while a Buddhist knows the Beatitudes.” Well, in all fairness to his flock, his flock was a pretty young flock and this Buddhist was a pretty old Buddhist who happened to have learned the Beatitudes from hearing the Bible read every morning in Public School in Philadelphia.

But we Americans are not allowed to hear the Bible inside our public institutions any more. There’s a line between church and state and that line is drawn between the citizenry and one of the most beautiful presentations of spiritual truth the world has ever known. Nearly an entire generation of Americans have never heard the Beatitudes because the only voices that ever uttered them have been silenced. Teachers can’t teach anything spiritual. And where shall this generation learn? In most American families, Mom and Dad both work and are understandably too exhausted or too hurried to begin each day with a thoughtful Bible reading. And on Sunday mornings, Jesus can speak from the Mount all he wants, but he’d better be calling NFL play action if he intends that his voice be heard in American homes.

Then, a few weeks ago, during an email discussion of the cosmic Dharmakaya with Chuan Zhi, the webmeister of our Nan Hua Zen Buddhist Page, I quoted Psalm 8: “When I consider thy heavens, the work of thy fingers, the moon and the stars which thou hast ordained; what is man, that thou art mindful of him?” Our webmeister, trained in nuclear physics, emailed me back, awestruck, “That was so beautiful! Where can I find more of those Psalms?” Now, Chuan Zhi is a profoundly spiritual man, a candidate for Buddhist ordination, a man who happens to appreciate the finer things of life: the saxophone of Stan Getz; the poetry of Rumi; Nilsson singing the Liebestod; but he grew up under the new interpretation of a separate church and state; and though he had been apprised of the secrets of atomic power – the boast of a proud nation, nobody had ever so much as hinted to him that it was possible to stun a man with the beauty of one of David’s songs. Something is wrong here.

Is this what the Founding Fathers intended?

As I write this, a neighbor is washing his car to the accompaniment of a boom-box that is dispensing Gangsta’ Rap by the decibel. In this lyrical exultation of free speech, we, the men, women, and children of the neighborhood, are permitted – indeed, we cannot avoid – the brute machismo celebrations of obscenity, violence, racism, drugs, the defiance of elected authority, and the abuse of women and families. Did the Founding Fathers intend that the State may not deprive us of the pleasure of hearing Gangsta’ Rap on our city streets and through our open windows while at the same time must protect us from hearing the Psalms of David in public institutions of knowledge and learning.? I may not have phrased it well, but it is a good question.

What are we really discussing by “knowledge” and “religion”? Certainly not wisdom and spirituality. No, wisdom is to knowledge what spirituality is to religion. They have a relationship but they are not kissing cousins.

To me, knowledge is information and shares this in common with religion: it is organized and disciplined; it is vocal and literal, it is something disseminated, broadcast, discussed. Knowledge wants to be known and seeks a forum’s setting just as a church, if nothing else, is an auditorium. What is a class to one is a congregation to the other.

While knowledge and religion are shared experiences, wisdom and spirituality are not. Nobody can participate in another person’s wisdom or intercept his experience of God. Wisdom is a quiet thing and so is spirituality. However much it’s sought, wisdom doesn’t seek. The wise don’t proselytize – that they are wise makes them know better – and the spiritual more than anything appreciate solitude. Wisdom looks inward and it looks deeply enough to see in itself the essence of all others. And that, of course, is what spirituality does. It retreats into the Void to see the ubiquity of God. Wisdom and spirituality are unitive. They see sameness. Knowledge and religion see and profit from differences.

Where Wisdom is recorded, the libraries of the world’s diverse religions keep the sacred books. And here we may perhaps find at least part of the source of the problem.

Who, ultimately, is responsible for the removal of sacred literature from the classroom? Were we acting to protect the atheist from being subjected to wisdom’s spiritual expression? Or, rather, when the issue first presented itself did we succumb to religious haggling and parochialism, masquerading bigotry as patriotism? Rather than risk having some doctrine of fairness applied, of having to expose our children to wisdom contained in other libraries, did we prefer to remove our separate versions of wisdom from the bargaining table, to secrete them in fortresses – the private schools and other institutions – where followers could flaunt their uniforms of exclusivity and privilege? Did we prefer to hoard our Truths rather than share them and accept a share of others?

If it is true that we have privatized Wisdom, is it not curious that though we insist upon our domestic separation of church and state we have no such requirement for those nations we consider allies? Americans who quite literally could be jailed for reading Proverbs before a public assembly of citizens may be asked to fight on foreign soil in support of governments which have, de facto if not de jure, state-sponsored religions and which, for that matter, may actually be intolerant of the religious views of those American servicemen and women who have come to defend them. It requires no great stretch of the imagination to foresee the possibility that the same fellow who commits a criminal act by reading Proverbs before an assembly of American school children would also commit a criminal act if, when drafted into military service, he declined to fight for the sake of any foreign government which mandated the reading of specific religious literature to its school children.

We are not so naive as to suppose that our government has separated church and state in any meaningful way. Religious institutions are tax exempt just as religious schools, in one way or another, are financially subsidized with state and federal revenues. While the children of the rich or of the righteous hear the scriptures and are nicely groomed for positions of authority – astronauts or politicians, the children of the poor and of the disaffected all too often become street-wise or discover the beauty of Truth by some chance utterance.

We all want the generation of citizens which follows us to have more opportunities than we had. Whether an illiterate man does or does not want his children to learn to read, we insist that his children shall at least attend school and be given the opportunity to learn.. That man, regardless of his desire, is unable to teach them; and we, therefore, supply by law the means of their education. But a religiously disaffected man, who is likewise unable or unwilling to impart traditional moral values, may raise, to use a Biblical quote, “a generation of vipers” for all anybody cares. We’ll simply build more prisons, a Constitutionally permissible solution.

No, we cannot be certain that the children who are denied access to scriptural wisdom will never occupy positions of authority. Power is no respecter of persons. We have had our fill of godless dictators just as we have also had a surfeit of religious fanatics whose fervor was never tempered by spirituality, or by anything resembling universal love and tolerance. Nothing in recent years has broadened the horizons of such persons. If anything, their vision, thanks to our turn towards separatism, has further narrowed to an on-edge knife blade’s. All proclaim One Virtuous Fatherly God but limit God’s legitimate offspring to the members of their particular society’s brotherhood.

What are the real ligatures of religion? Are they not those lines of Truth, those sutures, those Scriptures and Sutras and Suras that bind us to God? Those Sacred Lines of Thought which infuse knowledge with wisdom, which impart conscience to science, which inform fact with meaning and give significance to event? And do they not also tie us to the mystery of life with awe and reverence? For two hundred years the Republic flourished, enriched by freely stated spiritual expressions. Where was the problem that required judicial redress? The definition of prayer could perhaps have been clarified, but the system wasn’t broke and it didn’t need fixing. In repairing what was not broken, in tinkering with the freedom of expression, the Court created an instrument which no longer operates with any common sense. Gangsta’ Rap versus the Beatitudes… and Gangsta’ Rap wins? Is the quality of any American’s life improved by this?

Perhaps when public “prayer” was first suppressed we began to flatten the moral landscape, the topography of divine providence and individual responsibility. We no longer seem to walk resignedly through the Valley of Death or to climb the Path of Righteousness to reach self-discipline’s heavenly summit. We seem instead increasingly to be mired in a swamp of torts and government programs which compensate the consequence of immoral or self-indulgent behavior. Nobody is responsible for his own choices and mistakes; and were it not for the error of others, we should all live a thousand sybaritic years.

I recall no instance in a public classroom when a teacher used the Bible in an attempt to further his own religious agenda. Teachers, the educated among us who serve all too often as surrogate parents, were, in my recollection, invariably circumspect in their Biblical selections. Perhaps a professional pride made them respect their roles as being not merely purveyors of knowledge but as instruments of wisdom. I, for one, miss hearing that I could lift up my eyes unto the hills to find some needed strength and being reminded that though I spoke with the eloquence of angels if I didn’t have love in my heart, I might as well shut up.

And so we silence the voice of Wisdom; and many there are who, strangers to its resonance, will one day mediate the great issues of science and law, of genetic engineering and organ transplantation, of zoological experimentation, of weaponry, of interplanetary decorum, of privacy, of worldwide electronic communication, of censorship, of ethics, fairness, and political responsibility, and who will supply their generation with a definition of human decency.

The fourth event that led me to consider this problem was reading a poem by Wislawa Szymborska, the Pole who recently won the Nobel Prize in literature. Szymborska, too, seems to have been considering the problem of knowledge without wisdom. She, too, came of age when Communism had succeeded, admirably in its terms, not only in separating church from state but in replacing church with state and, of course, in eradicating spirituality altogether from its Manifesto of political ideology.

Meaning and Significance, Reverence and Awe were sent into exile, leaving Knowledge behind, alone, grim, and quite bewildered.

Her poem “Going Home” was sent to me by a thoughtful friend, Father Mark Serna, a Benedictine Abbot who knew how troubled I had been about NASA’s censoring the news of Buzz Aldrin’s lunar Communion.

I’ll leave you with Szymborska’s poem which has been translated by Baranczak and Cavanagh:

GOING HOME

He came home. Said nothing.
It was clear, though, that something had gone wrong.
He lay down fully dressed.
Pulled the blanket over his head.
Tucked up his knees.
He’s nearly forty, but not at the moment.
He exists just as he did inside his mother’s womb,
clad in seven walls of skin, in sheltered darkness.
Tomorrow he’ll give a lecture
on homeostasis in megagalactic cosmonautics.
For now, though, he has curled up and gone to sleep.

 

Humming Bird

 

Author: Ming Zhen Shakya

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Originally published in 1996 titled, A NOBEL PRIZE, LUNAR COMMUNION,
THE BEATITUDES AND A SONG OF DAVID’S

Indeed, Everything is a Spiritual Message

 

We, each one of us, have failed, fallen, stumbled; missed the mark of the Spiritual High Bird. Not one of us can cast a stone, not at another or even towards ourselves. Aspersions are never helpful despite our propensity to toss them around.

What does matter is to know firsthand, in our own skin that everything is a spiritual message. When we know this in our heart-spirit we see that is is our response to the misstep that matters.

Are we able to study the failing and see what the obstruction is within our mind? Or do we make excuses, cover it up, polish it with blame for and against others.

The current situation in the nation of separating children from their parents and the following turn around is a case in point. It was a misstep. A mistake. A failure. But the President seemed unable to admit any misstep. Any mistake. Any failure. Instead, he made it into a photo opportunity; a show of words of compassion by signing an executive order to stop a policy that he instituted. On the footsteps of the turn around of the policy he declares a dictum to the Attorney General to file legal proceedings in California to alter the longstanding 1980’s Flores settlement that protects unaccompanied minors (children) crossing the border.

The President and his loyalists made a mistake with the initial policy. OK. We all make mistakes. But the odd bit is that the President did not admit his mistake. I bring this current example up because it, like everything comes as a spiritual message for spiritual adepts. And I am not referring to the content of the error, but of the silence of an admission of it. Let me explain.

I think it is very difficult for most of us to admit our errors, our missteps, our failings….and like him, we go to all lengths to conceal, hide, and cover them up. It’s human nature to make an effort to make ourselves look better than we are, but it is the better, more nobler person who is able to avow his missteps to himself and if need be to others as a way to begin to go beyond the ‘human’ or mundane polishing of the ego-me (the e-me).  

Recognition of our missteps is a step up towards transcendence. It doesn’t mean that we need to broadcast our faults in public (unless our misstep is a public failing) but it does mean we confess our faults to our Self, to take responsibility without shame or blame and for those who are fortunate enough to have a spiritual confidant to tell them.

When we are unable to reveal our failings to ourselves in this manner and to express it to a spiritual confidant we are in the grip of pride. And pride, as most of  us know,  along with hate are the two obstructions that will keep us from the gate of liberation.

I refer us all back to the article Two Leashes: Narcissism & Humility and in particular the mention of the two deficits which are: (1) an inability to know our limits (this includes knowing our faults) and (2) an inability to ask for help.

I encourage each of us to study our e-me with a flashlight; looking for the ways we think “I alone” without any “help” can discover the Spiritual High Bird of liberation.  I encourage each of us to study how when we believe and think we know more than others, how when we think we are right and how when we see ourselves as superior we are being obstructed by pride and hate.

In order to do this work we need to add a study of how we do or do not seek “help.”

One way to examine this muddiness is to look at what you refer to when you think, speak and act. Is your self-exam a mirror of self-reflection on how right, knowledgeable and superior you are? Does it generate hate?

The current national error is a strong teaching for all of us. The President made a misstep. It took massive national outcries to get him to change and reverse his policy.

What does it take for you to see your missteps?  When you discover or realize your failings, what do you do?

There are two lessons here. One, everything for the noble spiritual adept is a spiritual message and (2) if you think you have made no mistakes….well… Ahem! I would suggest you have another look.

Humming Bird

Author: FaShi Lao Yue

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No Sides! No Sides!

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No Sides!

No Sides!

by Ming Zhen Shakya

 

With a simple computer click we choose “like” or “dislike” over and over again and without a notice the computer begins to present us only with “things” we like. Pop-ups from all sides….making an effort to persuade us, to sway us….

In a contentious time when everything seems unreliable where everything is up for grabs Ming Zhen Shakya offers us an opportunity to practice the pull for this and the push for that. She goads us, lures us, all the time getting ready to pull the rug out from under our beliefs and opinions. At the edge of thinking something is right or wrong she goes beyond and leaves us up in the air….uncomfortable, in the lap of Zen Buddhism. 

It is difficult to read an article that is edgy…and this one is. It pushes beyond easy comfort of right and wrong…but takes us to the place which Rumi describes as the “field beyond wrong-doing and right-doing.” Ming Zhen invites us to meet there, no matter what shows up…it is what a Zen Buddhist adept does….

 

No Sides

Humming Bird
AKA Zen, Justice and the Martial Arts Originally published in 2000

Author: Ming Zhen Shakya

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Practice the Precepts as Path

 


do no harm – cultivate goodness – purify the mind

For in the fullness of Heaven and Earth there is nothing that is not the wonder of T’ai Chi (The Source) and Yin/Yang (The Opposites). It was to this that the Sage looked up in contemplation and looked down in examination, seeking from afar and taking from the near at hand. (The Introduction to the Study of Change, by Chu Hsi.  Adler, Joseph Alan, trans.of the above book)

For those who read the essay, Two Leashes: Narcissism or Humility, consider this essay as a follow-up. Humility, as I suggest is a virtue that overtakes us. I continue to support that understanding. I will use The Three Pure Precepts of Zen Buddhism – do no harm, cultivate goodness, purify the mind and the four Immeasurables, kindness, compassion, sympathetic joy and equanimity as the focus of this essay. It is a preliminary practice which as you read along is reflective of the teaching of thusness. It is preliminary but it has a way of unsettling our fixed notions of ourselves hopefully in a manner that pushes to look upward to the Source.

 

The reason we do not get anywhere is that we do not know our limits and we are not patient in carrying on the work we have done. But without any labour at all we want to gain possession of virtue. (Esther de Waal, Seeking God)

I refer you specifically to her mention of three points, first, we must know our limits, second we must continue to work our spiritual practice and third, without any labour we lose spiritual ground (which she sees as the loss of virtue). I suggest quite strongly that we are limited in a way that might be both weighty and disturbing but is a necessity to see in order to leap clear of our ignorance. If we can yet gain a glimpse of this ignorance we may be able to continue the spiritual work upward in thusness. And finally, without some labour we remain spinning in the cycles of ignorance. I begin with what is most easily known and understood to be the mundane world and explain what we need to do to leap to the transcendent.

THE MUNDANE

This mundane, ordinary world is the world of right and wrong. It is the world of habits which we label as me or the functional self. The ME that likes and dislikes, complains and praises, accepts and rejects and on and on. It is the world of achievement and failure, of winning and losing and every other kind of dualism, i.e., males and females, plants and animals, up and down. It is a story we create which includes the body and mind and we call it, ME.

In this mundane, ordinariness of daily life we meet moment after moment chances to do harm, to do good and to follow the rules. It is in this world that we tend to label ourselves and others as good or bad according to the norms of the day.

Look into your own mind and see if you’ve divided up those you know into “good people” and those others as “not so good people.” This tendency to divide things up this way is the conventional life according to the cultural norms of our time and place.

The world of right and wrong is where we begin the practice of The Three Pure Precepts. We practice restraint and refrain from using our power to harm others and ourselves. We pay attention to what we do and what we say. And we are encouraged to follow the precepts to the best of our ability. We make an effort to act in such a way as to cultivate goodness and clean-up our act.

But…. we need to ask to what aim?

What is the aim of the mundane world in the practice of The Three Pure Precepts? For many, maybe most, the aim is to get along with others and look ‘good’ (whatever the cultural norm defines as ‘good’) so that you can fit in and not be exiled from the group. It is, in many ways, a civilizing survival aim.

Keep out of trouble, don’t hurt others, keep your hands to yourself, don’t talk dirty, stop talking gossip, don’t cheat, don’t steal, don’t lie, and on and on it goes. This practice aims to help you conform and stay out of trouble. You know, have friends, get a job, marry, kids, buy stuff, become a success, and become a trustworthy, respected person in society. The main aim in simple words is to ‘fulfill your duty.’

This aim is a mundane aim and is no small accomplishment. Many are unable to follow these precepts. I call this work the initial stage of working with The Three Pure Precepts. It is preliminary. What makes it preliminary when it requires large sums of effort? It is preliminary because it is the playground of the functional self (ego, me-mind) and the aim is in the functional realm. Let me explain.

If we look at the pure precepts we see that each precept manifests in some measure of one or more of the four Immeasurables. The Immeasurables are: kindness, compassion, sympathetic joy and equanimity. This practice is usually followed by some self assessment of how we fair in terms of kindness, compassion, sympathetic joy and equanimity. The self-assessment of how well we are doing is expected because it is a tip-off of where one’s practice is.

Most, if not many, can learn to be kind, can learn to be empathic (compassion) and with some stronger training learn to be joyful for another who has received accolades that we may or may not have wanted for our self. In each instance of these three immeasurables, the functional self is getting the training. We teach people to wait and let the other go first, we teach people to be quiet, we teach people to keep their opinions to themselves, we teach people to listen, to put yourself in the other’s shoes, and with more effort we teach others to be glad for someone who got what we wanted. Offices are full of atta’ boy pats on the back.

Beginning with kindness and moving upward to equanimity the work and training is more difficult. The functional self requires more effort and attention, making sympathetic joy more arduous than kindness and compassion.

The Three Pure Precepts, do no harm, cultivate goodness, purify the mind and the first three of the four immeasurables, kindness, compassion and sympathetic joy are for the most part practiced in the mundane world of ordinary life. And they tend to require more effort on the part of the practitioner as the practice moves from do no harm to purify the mind and from kindness to sympathetic joy. Self-assessment is part of this realm and the practitioner often finds yardsticks being dusted off time and again. But it is to be expected since this practice begins in the mundane world and with the functional story of the self. It is preliminary but it must be studied. The functional self must be studied and forgotten or emptied in order to make the leap to the transcendent. Here is where resistance in practice occurs. But that is a huge story in itself to be taken up at another time.

The fourth immeasurable, equanimity, is a bridge between the mundane and the transcendent and is another type of tip-off on where one’s practice is. It’s a bridge because it is difficult to train to be calm-abiding in the face of all the vagaries of life.

Time and again we meditate, study, practice only to find ourselves still irritable, complaining, angry, hurt, cheap, outraged and such worldly annoyances. We find ourselves still measuring our progress with our handy yardstick of good and bad. We carry on with all the same old habits, albeit less, they continue to overtake us. The world’s glitter still draws us away from the Beloved and we find ourselves needing to run back for a tune-up. All mundane. All of the world. All functional.

What is it that might help us cross that bridge to leaping clear to the transcendent.

It requires the dissolution of the first aim, getting along with others and being a good person. It requires letting go of the story of the functional self. And we must have a commitment to the aim of the transcendent world to discover the True Self.

The initial first work is to fulfill one’s duty using the precepts. This work is set down and forgotten. We disentangle from it. Often a natural progression in the material mundane world helps us. When our duties are fulfilled we commit to seeking a spiritual life. The difficulty here is to know when the duty is fulfilled. Parents often struggle with clinging to this duty. Those comfortably set in a particular lifestyle may tend to cling to it long after it is no longer necessary. Our earlier patterns and habits of the functional self are still important and not forgotten.

To summarize. We need to let go of the ‘cleaned up good self we put together’ or ‘the wretched self we patched up and reformed.’ And we must forget the functional story of the mundane world, since it is not necessary in the transcendent.

The focus in the transcendent is the precept, purify the mind and the immeasurable, calm-abiding in all circumstances. The functional self will succumb to worldly distractions and ignorance and circumstances will challenge the calm abiding. Thee ol’ yardstick continues to come out to measure how poorly or how well we are doing.

Please keep in mind that there are not actually two worlds, but for the sake of teaching and because we tend to divide the world according to our ignorance, the division is a teaching tool only. A key point here is that in order to leap, we drop (kill, forget) the functional aim and the self that clings to it.

THE TRANSCENDENT

In the transcendent way, we practice the Three Pure Precepts to discover what exists. And what I mean is we discover our True Self, that which never ends, and never begins. This work is not the work of the functional me. I hope you have a sense that this work cannot be claimed by the functional me-self. And that calm-abiding (equanimity) is needed to enter this work. Without it, the functional ego-me will swamp us and all sorts of complaints and self-worries will win out. We need the calm-abiding mind to support faith in the work and to help us keep our eye on the aim. And what is that aim, it is to discover our True Nature. Not create, clean-up, or polish our functional-me-self, but to forget that and know it to be false (impermanent).

In this realm we begin to see the precepts in service of this aim at this level. A PURE mind is a prerequisite for knowledge, the knowledge of a sort that will be bright enough to extinguish ignorance.

Each third of the three precepts, do no harm, cultivate goodness, purify the mind, is a step on the path upwards (if you will) towards the Light of the ‘clear circle of brightness.’ (Hongzhi) Each third supports the other two making a garland of three and are our instructions to find our True Nature. They show us our True Nature without the functional ego-me-self companion in the mundane realm.

Our True nature is harmless, goodness, purity, immeasurably so. But it is not of the functional ego-me-self. If the ego-me-self practices to polish itself up to look and act like the three precepts and it is still in the mundane realm. The aim of the practice is a realization which is not a function of the ego-self.

The practice is to the quick….where all tendencies, those apparent habits we put together in the mundane world, those ideas of who you think you are (whether good or bad) those false identities you are convinced you are — the false you —-must be dealt with until you know they are not what you are. It is the ‘killing off’ of that false you.

Strong language is often used because our tendency to grip and cling is tenacious. We did all this work in the mundane world to look pretty, be good, love others, be cool and now the practice is to let all of THAT go? YES! It is to let it go. Kill it. Forget it. Do what you need to do to brush it off, burn it, sweep it away….to purify the mind.

Use knowledge to out power ignorance. The knowledge is the power of discrimination between what is real (unborn, undying) and the unreal (born, subject to death) and a simple, but difficult practice is to negate the constructed, put-together false you with a mantra.

To begin this preliminary practice, try one or all three of the following:

  1. Can you discriminate between the real (unborn, undying) and the unreal (born, dying)?
  2. Can you see the old story of the mundane world as just a story?
  3. Every time you hear the old story, can you use the power of chant and face off the story with the chant….Not That! Not That! Not That!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

This essay covers just the preliminaries, but we need to start somewhere. And this is a good place to start. After reading and studying this teaching I refer you back to the beginning quote from the work by Chu Hsi,

May the merit of this practice benefit all beings.

 

 

 

Humming Bird

Author: FaShi Lao Yue

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Two Leashes: Narcissism or Humility

Two Leashes: Narcissism and or Humility by FLY 2018

 

Proviso. Most of the ideas in this essay come from ancient sages from different traditions. I function much like the moon, I reflect the Light in these teachings as the Moon reflects the Light of the Sun.  Fashi Lao Yue

 

Why is the Sea Called the King of a Hundred Streams?

 

The reason is, the sea lies below and is seen as the nature of virtue. In Confucian thought humility is compared to the sea and is the king of virtue; considered the virtue of “not striving [2]” as it runs beneath and between. Making lies below and flowing out two characteristics of humility.

Imagine entering every moment, every encounter with what comes into your life with a realization of not only not striving, not knowing but with the attitude of being ready and flowing out below the radar. The image of the sea, the King of a hundred streams in the ancient Chinese question might help us in not striving and not knowing. The sea lies below.Lie low!” An excellent caution, a burly mantra, a robust admonition. It streams out below meeting what it comes in contact with going on actualizing.

But say, what keeps us from practicing “Lie Low!”: a sturdy steady saying? How many of us practice the Keeper of Knowledge and the Mother of Virtue [3] known as humility? I wonder if it is because we don’t know what humility is — that it conjures up hair shirts and deprivations of all sort. That is no part of humility. For humility can’t be gained by force or pretense of any kind; it comes sudden, unexpected and washes away our interest in the seeking, know-it-all self. All traditions know this at the higher levels of seeking the Divine.

In Buddhism, we are encouraged to study the self to the degree that we forget the self. This practice is a kindred spirit of humility but does not in itself make us to be humble. There is a realization that the self, our tendencies of self-import are flushed away; swoosh out of the picture. Leaving us actualized right in the middle of the realization of impermanence. In other words, when we forget the self we stop taking things personally and know the true nature of a thing as we meet it. [4]

Sister Wendy Beckett, a modern mystic, offers us a similar teaching. She writes humility has nothing to do with having a low opinion of yourself, rather it has to do with not being interested in your opinions, not gazing long….at yourself. [5] This brilliant simple, brief explanation accords with the definition of emptiness (Love); the forgetting the self.

Most ancient teachers worth their salt suggest a spiritual adept realizes humility putting humility as a realization and not something to be toyed with at the beginning. It comes after much study of the self in the practice of forgetting the self.

Eckhart reflects a similar definition in his elucidating sermon # 87 on the beatitude, poor in spirit. This virtue appears to be the door keeper of not only the other virtues but of the interior kingdom of the Eternal. “Lie low!” appears to be an admonition to be the source of many streams that go unnoticed; streams that lead to the kingdom.

In my search and study on humility I read a simple definition from an unusual source for me these days; a psychoanalytic book on narcissism. The psychoanalytic definition rests on the personality disturbance of grandiosity and narcissism and is stated in terms of lack. When we are grandiose and narcissistic we lack something in our personality structure; so says the psychoanalytic material. More specifically the lack that unleashes grandiose and narcissistic ideation and behaviors is a lack of knowing the ego-limits of the functional self which results in an inability to ask for help. To be clear there are two basic functions of the self that are lacking that negates any hope of being struck by the sudden humble wings mentioned earlier; (1) not knowing our limits which results in the second lack (2) not being able to ask for help. It is a definition with two basic deficits.

If we tie the psychoanalytic definition together with the Confucian and mystical views, the narcissist is very interested in his or her opinions and gazes long at them. This epitomizes the know-it-all stance. These characteristic deficits inhibit the attitude of being poor in spirit. They overshadow possibility of realization by a blazing self-interest making even the earliest effort of “Lie Low!” unthinkable. In other words, “not striving” and “not knowing” are out of the question when we lack the ability to know our limits and ask for help.

What comes to mind is a quote I have framed on my desk from a book by Esther de Waal, Seeking God.

The reason we do not get anywhere is that we do not know our limits and we are not patient in carrying on the work we have done. But without any labour at all we want to gain possession of virtue.

The words getting anywhere must refer to getting anywhere spiritually as she ends by saying this fellow who does not know his limits desires to be seen as virtuous (a pretense) without doing the work. Her words suggest that if we don’t know our limits we lose out on virtue; which I define as excellence in character. Esther de Waal suggests there is a lack associated with not knowing our limits. The same tune shows up yet again.

Marguerite Porete, a historical Christian mystic, expresses the same sentiment but from the side of humility itself. Virtue is lacking. We might conclude that if virtue is lacking that the person is unable to ask for help because he thinketh he does not recognize his limits which might tell him he is off balance.

 Humility, the keeper of the treasury of Knowledge

And the Mother of the other virtues,

Must overtake you. [6]

 When we suffer from grandiosity and narcissism we are locked out of the treasures of Knowledge and are very susceptible to fault and failures of a high level. Porete sees humility in terms of a guardian of the treasury of spiritual knowledge and virtue and a force or power of some sort that must overtake you. It’s not something to pretend to be or do. It comes upon us unexpected.

The best we can do is to correct our tendencies of not knowing our limits and ask for help. We practice “Lie Low!” by stopping the tendency to strive and stopping the gazing at our opinions and enter patience. Patience being an ally to all of efforts. We wait to be swept away by the power of humility.

I think another admonition that is helpful is “Be Careful!” By this I mean study your life in such a way that you learn how to create the conditions to practice your spiritual path. In other words, what do you need to avoid and what do you need to encourage for humility to come a knocking on the door of the interior kingdom.

I can only speak for myself which I mention only as an example and not as a directive. Living a contemplative life is my way to “Lie Low!” and “Be Careful!” To pull off from the world is to be a bystander, a small trickle that goes along disentangled.

When we suffer in grandiosity and narcissism we have not yet studied our life in such a way that we know the conditions that might benefit us spiritually. All of these definitions, Buddhism, Beckett, Eckhart, Porete, de Waal, bring to mind an image of a person who heads out in life and disregards the obvious and inevitable cliffs in front of them because they are staring at themselves. The self-gazing disregard caution. “Lookout, Danger Ahead!” goes unheeded.

The analytic definition, from the negative, depicts a reckless tendency that has no bounds. It suffers in ignorance and arrogance. If we turn the definition to the affirmative, we continue to see two failures in the constructed fiction self which lead to major disturbances in function. The individual is self-sufficient to the point that self-sufficiency hinders a capacity to see the dangers ahead. In other words, the person does not see or cannot even imagine that there is an edge to the self. Nothing stands in the way. Counsel is never sought or if it is, it is blown off by a sense of self that thinks it knows better than any counsel given. When others warn of the danger ahead the grandiose structure has no sense of an inner signal of danger; the limitless view overshadows the signal. Help is unwanted and demeaned making the self-gazer incapable of knowing when to pause and ask for help.

The odd trait that accompanies grandiosity and narcissism is the person who suffers so is very willing to admit to being self-involved and self-centered. It is usually said in a rather fixed way, as in “This is who I am.” Or “I know better.” When we set our self in such a way we tend not to be teachable and when we are not open to hearing, listening and taking in teachings we remain in the ignorance of our constructed created shell.

Now we might think this particular definition does not apply to us; for we do not fit such a tight definition as a lack of knowing our limits which results in an inability to ask for help. We may even think we know we have limits and that we have asked for help and then feel relief that we are not such a grandiose and narcissistic sufferer. I beg for each of us to take another look.

 In my capacity as both a student and a teacher of the Dharma I have seen this definition play out over and over again making me aware of my own deficiency in this area as well as the deficiency in others. I have not met anyone who does not suffer to some degree from this ignorance. We think we know and we think we don’t need help. Dare I say it is the nature of the constructed, creative self?

Here is how this delusion often works. See for yourself.

It begins with a willingness to self-examine but the result of the self-study falls short and a conclusion is drawn. The conclusion being, “This is who I am!” It’s a declarative made up of a series of declarations of what I like and what I don’t like. Those of us who know the Zen Dharma we may in some small way recognize the danger of such a view of self. It leads to all sorts of suffering (dukkha). In this self-exam phase we may come away with a further delusion of our capacity and capability declared in either the negative or affirmative, i.e., “I can’t and/or I can.” Declarations such as these cement the self around these internal mental formations leaving very little space for the King of the sea to flow out and to lie low. This appears to be a limit but in reality it is a fixed position in the self. Here is an example.

One of my teachers was asked by her teacher, who I might add was a power packed teacher, to do something she had never done and did not know how to do. My teacher stated her inability as most of us might. Indignant, she responded to the request by saying, “I don’t know how to do that!” Lucky for her, the teacher saw the response for what it was and said to her, “That doesn’t matter. Do it anyway.” The sudden shift was a poke from humility. Feeling the poke, my teacher did as her teacher requested wobbly and unprepared as she was. The self was blown out of the way.

The second phase that comes after self-examination is an apparent willingness to seek help. It shows up in an admission of sorts such as “I know this is how I am. AND I could use some help.” This request carries a similar risk of falling short. It can and often does come as a request from the self-gazing self that wants verification and validation of all sorts of wily aspects of the ego. “Look at me. See how good I am. Or I am not as bad as I thought, am I? Or give me some credit. Or let me show you how much I understand.” On and on goes the list. The self-exam turns into self polishing. It is not to polish the ego it is to forget the tendencies of our conditioned mind in order to get free of the conditions. When self-examination goes sour it usually is seen in turning away from the Dharma; a giving up which can either be haughty such as slamming the door or giving up with declarations of ‘there is something else, somewhere else.’

The third phase is the most telling and perhaps the most important. This step comes after some help is offered.  The response to the help offered is some form of brush off of the offering. Such as, “I already know that.” Or “I don’t believe that.” Or “I know better.” All sorts of “I” declarations against the teachings start to come up. A long self assured litany of knowing and brushing away or contradicting comes up. What is needed is a willingness to be taught.

Two words open the flow and require some tiny trickle of humility. The two words are:“Teach me.” Give this a try. Adults and perhaps especially American adults find it difficult to make a sincere request, “Teach Me.” I can give you an example from my work with my teacher.

I struggled, especially at first, with her insistent approach to the Dharma especially when she entered into the psychological realm. My stupidity and ignorance and narcissism raised hackles since I have a doctorate in psychology and she had nothing of the sort. “Who was she to speak to me like that when I am a doctor and she is not.” UGH! How ignorant I was. It didn’t last long, thank God. I stopped myself from thinking I knew more than she did. She continued on offering the Dharma in all sorts of ways and what I learned to do was to say, “Yes.” To actualize meeting what came into my life with “Yes. Teach Me.” After all I sought her out because I knew she knew something I did not know. I asked her to teach me. This turn to her with a sincere request to teach me made it possible to be actualized by the myriad things; made it possible for the distinctions of body/mind to drop away.

Now you might misconstrue this to think I said “Yes” to a person, but that would be wrong. I said “YES” to the Truth; to the Dharma which included a person wiser than my small stupid self. Believe me she suggested some pretty wild things….but I was devoted to the teachings, to being open, to listen, to learn all I could from her. Was it easy? No. It wasn’t. But I hit the jackpot.

Consider these three steps for yourself and see where you land. Do you “Lie Low!” Are you free of striving? Do you sit in “not knowing?”

The proof is in the eating; eating the teachings in such a way as to be overtaken by the power of humility.

Just to wrap it up. When we suffer from big ideas without limit and are unable to ask for help, we must be able to recognize these traits, know firsthand the suffering they cause us and be open to learning. In other words, we must be overtaken by our willingness to “Lie low!” “Be careful!” Do not strive or think you know what will be — if you do, you will be further away from the True Self.

Humming Bird

Author: FaShi Lao Yue

A Single Thread is not a blog. If for some reason you need elucidation on the teaching, please contact the editor at: yao.xiang.editor@gmail.com

 

[1] Why is the Sea title –  Tao Te Ching

[2] Tao Te Ching

[3] M. Porete

[4] Genjokoan Dogen

[5] Sister Wendy on Prayer

[6] M. Porete

The Dharma of the Rat’s Ass

 

Credit: Fa Ming Shakya

In Memory of Venerable Ming Zhen Shakya

My teacher, more times than I can remember, would say to me at the end of a teaching, “I don’t give a rat’s ass.” It was a teaching that overshadowed whatever she had said beforehand. That’s how powerful it was. That’s how important it became. Today and every day it remains a radiant guiding light for how I live in the Dharma. Let me explain.

Delivered with zeal and at the end of an array of spiritual truths, she’d say,  “I don’t give a rat’s ass,” which remains a long remembered and potent teaching on its own. What it did and still does, is it allows the teachings to be given free of any Zen stink. The teachings are in their own right liberated from any persuasion or hook of the teacher. But a teacher can taint them. The Dharma of her punctuated saying, “I don’t give a rat’s ass,” is a clearing of taints and was given in the most direct, intimate way. Said in such a way, my teacher demonstrated and exemplified a cornerstone of Zen practice. What is that cornerstone?

 

Don’t get entangled.

 

She, her ego was not invested in me, my ego in any way. She was not trying to sell me, persuade me, engage me, convert me, flatter me, deceive me, trick me or convince me. No inveigling. It is much like the old idiom, “take it or leave it.” It gave the message that this is the Dharma and there’s nothing else to say. Leaving me free to decide, to choose to hear, to study, to continue or not. It was the Zen message of “Don’t seek from others, (not even me) because if you do, you’ll be further away from who you really are. It is the ultimate teaching of Chan Master Dongshan, “You go it alone now. You are not IT. IT is actually you.”

MIng Zhen Shakya was enormously generous both in her availability to give the teachings and in her delivery of the Zen Dharma. There was a certainty in the direction of the teachings presented but never a confining, imprisoning one. She, long ago, had gone beyond the opposites of right and wrong.

 

Anytime I was wobbling she’d give me a royal fleur de lis of teachings from the Buddhas and ancestors and would wrap it up with this one from her. “I don’t give a rat’s ass.” After so much generous, erudite and affable Dharma she’d wind it up with telling me she didn’t give a rat’s ass whether I took the teachings to heart or not. It may sound cold-hearted, but it wasn’t. It was an intimate way of making the teaching free. She had no hooks or claws into me of wanting me to be this or that. She neither pulled on me nor shoved me away; she was without entanglement. She lived the Dharma of the not giving a rat’s ass. All for the benefit of those who were lucky enough to make her acquaintance and seek her wisdom.

 

We all tend to have ideas of what a Zen teacher should be or say, such as lofty, well versed, kind, compassionate, gentle ( the list is endless); but in every case it is some deluded image we conjure up. Meeting an awakened teacher is not the same as our imagined or deluded image of a Zen teacher.

If anyone thinks or believes of her as coarse or crude, you’d be likely to hear her say, “I don’t give a rat’s ass.” That is a piercing arrow through your deluded image of how you think a Dharma heir should be.

The Dharma of the Rat’s Ass is quite a mouthful of Dharma; it pierces delusion.

Humming Bird

Author: FaShi Lao Yue

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Where Suffering Cooks UP

Pot & Lid by FLY

 

 

Although Pandora’s box was really a jar, when she, who was made of clay, took off the the lid out came all the evils and troubles for the world. We do the same thing. When we open the My, Me, Mine, I, letting the ego escape from the Pot we let all our troubles out. This pot is our very own version of a Pandora’s box. Except in this case, we, you and me take off the lid and let out the “I” (the me, my, mine stuff ) which is the source of all our troubles. Our pot is full of stuff that we’ve cooked-up. It’s hard to believe, I know but please read on. It’s actually good news for the soul which makes it good news for our lives.

In Buddhism we say, there is a way to end suffering which is a big attraction for all of us. Most of us want to end our suffering as well as help others do the same. But instead of following the teachings of our ancient masters we look into the world for the cause and the relief rather than follow the old teachings. 

That’s our first error. We are looking for the hope of help in the wrong place. Often, for years we look in the wrong direction. We think someone or something will provide what we need. Only to find out we continue to suffer.

What do we do?

What we need to do is look at where suffering begins. Stop for a moment and bring up some dissatisfaction in your life. Once you have it in mind, ask where did this suffering begin? Many of us look at the someones and things in life as the cause of dissatisfaction. Either someone is missing or someone is doing something we don’t like. It’s true for things as well. Something is missing or something isn’t quite right. This cycle of looking outward is ingrained by years and years of habit. Years of looking in the wrong direction. If dissatisfaction does not begin with someone else or some thing in the world, where does it begin?

It begins in the My, Me, Mine, I Pot. It is in this pot, dissatisfaction begins. Yes, YOU and I are the cause of suffering. 

Much like Pandora’s box, we open the lid of our desires, judgments, measures, and release the troubles into our life. Hard to believe, I know. We thought our suffering was coming from our external environment. Check it out for yourself.

Where does suffering start for you? Isn’t it when you start thinking and talking and believing what you want or don’t want? Isn’t it true that you begin by telling yourself how unhappy you are with the things and people of life? Something or someone is too much or not enough. Isn’t this what we do?

The beginning of the realization of suffering is when “I” begins to understand that the My, Me – Mine – I Pot is not substantial, but is the cauldron of suffering. We all say “I” am suffering. See for yourself. Don’t you say, “I” am suffering. You may point to your body and say ME, this ME is where suffering is. We believe it, don’t we? We see our “I” as the one who is suffering; not realizing it is the cause of suffering. It is a realization to see this truth.

We think for a very long time suffering comes from the outside. In many ways, the material world trains us to think dissatisfaction comes from the stuff of the external world. And for a very long time we try to change the people and things of our life in order to make it satisfactory. The reason for this Sisyphean approach is ignorance. Ignorance of where to look for the end to suffering. WE keep trying to rearrange our outer world to end suffering. It is a blindness (a terrible stupidity) that brings along with it pride and hate.  We are unable to see that we cause suffering when we say “I.” When we say whatever is happening is happening to ME. We react to whatever it is in many different ways. All manner of suffering comes when we hold onto the “I” and experience everything as happening to ME (the “I”). We, unfortunately, will continue to roll that stupid rock until we see otherwise.

At this point you may think what I am saying is stupid, just plain nonsense, but even if you say that it is stupid I think you will not deny it is “I” that suffers. Whatever the suffering is, it is ME or Mine or MY suffering. It is ”I” that experiences suffering. Yes, I think you can see that. I hope you can. You agree it is “I” that suffers. Not someone else. If I told you your suffering belongs to someone else, you know that is not true. You may want to blame someone else for your suffering, but that is not true either. Things outside of “I” are triggers, but not the cause of suffering. “I” the clinging identification of “I” is the cause. Look closely in your “I”. Isn’t it true? “I” suffer because “I” want something to be different than IT is. I want existence itself to be different and “I” make great effort to change existence for the sake of “I.” Can you see that?

When the lid is off the My, Me – Mine – I Pot, we suffer. It’s when we take things and others personally. Personally means according to me, the “I.”

Isn’t it true that we say things such as “If I go here, I will feel less suffering. If I go there, I will feel less suffering. If I get this thing, I will be free of suffering. If I get rid  of that thing, I will be free of suffering.” The list of “I desires” is endless. What is common in all these situations of suffering is “I”….me, my, mine. The contents (made up by the way) of the pot is where to look to find liberation. 

Suffering starts with “I” and ends when “I” is forgotten.

How else could it be? 

So it is a very useful contemplation to ask who is this “I” who starts up suffering. Who is this “I” where suffering begins and lives and continues in the oceans of samsara?

To help a little, consider what you say about “I”…..I am in trouble. I am sick of this. I hate that. I don’t want any part of this. I want that instead. I am happy about that. I want. I hate. I need. Oh just see how the “I” is the start to all the waters swirling around that brings up all kinds of suffering…..fear, worry, frustration, irritation, aggravation, intoxication, and on and on. It boils down to seeing “I” as the center of inadequacy and adequacy.

The “I” imagines the past and the future as allies of suffering in the mind and strengthens the “I” position with wishful thinking and worries about outcome.

STOP it.

Are you able to stop the “I”?

If not, the work is clear. Study your “I.”

In Zen Buddhism we STOP suffering  by looking into “I”

We must begin by looking into “I”

And when we see and know the “I” as a constructed carrier of ignorance and the cause of suffering, we begin the journey to willingly forget the old built  “I” structures. We take the “I” off the throne.

How do we do it?

We forget the “I.”

And when we forget the “I”

The wheel of wandering in suffering ends.

BUT we don’t imagine what forgetting the “I” looks like or how it should be. NO that is more of the “I”

We GET OFF the Wheel of birth and death; we don’t polish it.

STOP the spin and GET OFF.

Study the “I” of who you think you are.

And forget it. Drop it. And do this over and over again. 

Seek liberation from the “I” (me, my,mine) by relinquishing the “I” because it is there where suffering arises. Get away from the ideas of who you are. Can you do that? Or are you attached to all those ideas of “I”

Do you say stuff like “I am this type of person.” OR “I can’t help being like that… this is who I am.”

I am this, not that. I am weak here and better there. I am a woman. I am a man. I am a good person. I am a bad person. I am ok. I am — I am — I am. The suffering continues with this connection to “I” NO matter what the attachment is.

Special? Forgotten? Struggling? Blah Blah Blah

You must be able to let go of the ideas of “I.” Can you do that?

You can do it in one quick moment. Give up the “I”

All the ideas go away when you give up the “I”

But now you may feel afraid. WHO will “I” be if “I” give up this “I”

That is a ghost trying to get the “I” to go after something. And when we do that we continue to suffer.

It is to let it go. KAPUT!

It is a bit like a “natural” burial. A “natural” burial is where the “I” dies and is not embalmed.  There is no casket. The “I” is gathered up and placed in a pot and put into the ground immediately. Relinquished. It is very quick. POOF!

THE FIRST STEP IS TO ASK AND STUDY THIS QUESTION:

Where does suffering come from?

If you say it comes from the external world, keep asking the question. Study it close-up in your life. Find out for yourself.

Good luck.

Humming Bird

Author: FaShi Lao Yue

A Single Thread is not a blog. If for some reason you need elucidation on the teaching, please contact the editor at: yao.xiang.editor@gmail.com